This Can Not Be Happening to Me

  1. Even if we were aware something was wrong with us, our entry into this world is almost always announced by the phrase, “ We noticed something abnormal in your labs/scans; we need to do further tests to be certain, but we need to admit you to the hospital right now.”
  2. Even though our individual stories diverge dramatically after diagnosis, our lives are either completely or somewhat The Stuff of Nightmares. I may be verbally gifted, but even I can’t begin to adequately describe how hard and frightening life post-diagnosis is. I’ve heard this hyper-surreal, alternate dimension existence best summarised by the common complaint, “This can not be happening to me.”
  3. We would all — every one of us — give anything to go back to our lives just an hour before diagnosis. Even if we couldn’t change anything, even if we had to see it all unfold again exactly the same way; we desperately wish we could savor those last few minutes of near-health, before we got that scarlet C.

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